mother had warned me long ago
it runs through the family blood
gluttony now drags me in the mud
and the desire never stops to grow
perhaps it’s written in the stars
that these steps I should follow
inside my chest I try to fill a hollow
and finally cough out all my scars
the stars however have no fault
I pray they will understand me
I wanted to be young and free
yet I’ve grown old without a halt
I wanted to escape my thoughts
I’m on the run for years ever since
long have I tried myself to convince
to stop attempting to untie my knots
what is my fate when time stays still
and behind the horizon hides the sun
my sins and sorrows I count one by one
until the day I’ll be taken against my will
January 2020