initiation

it’s hard to dream alone again after four years holding hands yet dreams turned into quicksands bittersweet taste of joy and pain   as I put both onto a scale over and over through the years with regret I’d proven … Continued

forgive me for I wasn’t thereI left but I could have returnedbusy by everyday concernedforever this weight I will bear   I turned my back on you when toldI’ve heard you’ll soon be coming homeI didn’t go and now the … Continued

they will call you and say I’m lost for the first time I found the way they will despair and crawl away because today I’m but a ghost   we just live and then we just die sometimes we die … Continued

I keep falling into this dream and every time I wake up I slip back into the stream to abyss my soul I dip by day and night   I evermiss the chance to redeem the fight is lost before … Continued

I know this feeling will never extinguish despite all I do to put it out it will burn forever without a doubt feeding the angst that I can’t relinquish   I wish the years will smooth the rocky trail only … Continued

come visit me into my dreams you come to me every other night my heart is heavy my sleep is light onto a raft I drift led only by streams   the gentle waves swing me to sleep and I … Continued

for a not yet committed sin nevertheless I’m culpable for the sin not committed is I am indeed miserable   the thought that never wants to leave my head in peace by day and night it haunts me towards the … Continued

it rips me from the inside behind leaves emptiness and dust nothing more than a hollowed crust voided of any life or pride   the days go by yet time stays still reverberates through recollections no star can give me … Continued

it hurts yet I cannot stop it I trick myself into believing another one won’t hurt my living another step to the bottomless pit   I pray I can keep far away the spirits feasting on my flesh they carve … Continued

the empty kitchen smells like mould the tiles are green the mood is blue since yesterday it has a darker hue turns even darker with the cold   for all I’ve tried I can’t escape it climbs relentless up my thoughts nevertheless … Continued