forgive me for I wasn’t there
I left but I could have returned
busy by everyday concerned
forever this weight I will bear
I turned my back on you when told
I’ve heard you’ll soon be coming home
I didn’t go and now the storm
has ravaged it and brought its cold
mom said call him but I forgot
how much I wish that I had called
to tell you how much I had loved
the father I had never got
the child I was is now adult
we share much more than you can guess
I wish you could see me and bless
the path I took as a result
you were reading me El Zorab
I will keep in my heart forever
crying over the horse whenever
was sacrificed by Ben-Ardun
the only joy that I have left
is that I shared with you my art
the last time before we would part
I gave to you my biggest heft
may you now find the peace you sought
you lost it a long time ago
and then we lost each other slow
then death came and life was naught
you were there the first time I drank
I was thirteen and you were proud
the years passed I often found
myself lost on the bottom sunk
we shared this love for something else
but what that something is who knows
we seek it through highs and lows
bound to never find it hence
when the news came was no surprise
I had wondered when would it come
the time when for you I would crumb
it came out of the bluest skies
I knew already you were dead
for you nothing was left in here
how much I wish the time to tear
and rectify the years I dread
May 2022